Remember the first
time you heard your own voice in a recording? How we’re perceived is different
from how we see ourselves. It’s important to believe in yourself and try to
lessen any negativity.
I test on the edge of the autism scale. I’m clumsy and have to remind myself to have eye contact. An introvert, I do stimming with my arms and hands. I’ve worked hard, like others use a mirror to see the back of their head, to circumvent any issues that I can. On the plus side, my brain is quick and concise and I have a few wild skills. One problem I have is that people argue and say I’m an extrovert. I learned in junior high that I got more of what I want if I spoke up.
I’m in the last
third of my life, when I think people revert to who they were originally, and
the masks they have worn to get by fall away. I was a sensitive child, and I
still feel awful when those who are damaged express jealousy or envy. I haven’t
outgrown my worry about everyone’s near misses and full stops, or about their
misguided anger, but now I’m better able to feel pity instead of frustration. I
say, ever onward for those who live with their own demons that no one else can
understand. Let’s all have hope, forgiveness, and thanksgiving.
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